Telling me to do things that can't be right.

“I need peace of mind & gentle hand
as I try to change the way I am
& God forgives me when I can't
I need peace of mind & a gentle hand

or a miracle
for this broken soul
a little miracle
for this broken soul.”

(peace of mind, m.s.)

Dear Lord,

I am angry. I am angry at all these people who seem to care so much more about what You care about than I do. I don't want to slip into apathy, but I feel my dreams slipping away. I want what I want; I dream about my own goals. What do I want to do? Who do I want to become? And what I love most about life is what makes me happy...what brings me earthly pleasure.

I don't mean to say that these things are bad. I do not curse the gift simply because I don't love the Giver enough. But that's just it. I don't love the Giver enough. Change my reason for living, O Great Sabbath Breaker. Let it not be to please others or to meet human standards of “goodness” but let it be to bring You glory. Every day let these desires be restored.

Lord, revive my relationships daily. Let us love each other, to Your glory. I am tired of taking for myself. I am tired with being concerned only with what I want. I am tired of my relationships being all about what I can get.

And once again, I beg you to change me.


Thank you for your hesed and emet.

I don't deserve this.

a peace of mind
& a gentle hand.